Thursday, June 21, 2012

The origin of this adventure!

So... here I am, blogging . . . not because I have important things to say, not because I think anyone will be interested in anything I have to say, but just because I need a way to document the challenge I've decided to undertake . . . in other words, IT'S ALL ABOUT ME!  The challenge?  the Susan G. Komen 60 Mile, 3-Day Walk in Tampa, FL October 26-28th.
How did this happen?  What would possess a 54 year old, overweight mother of two grown sons and church secretary to decide that it's a good idea to walk 60 miles in 3 days in Tampa, FL of all places?  The answer to this question is not a simple one -- more like an onion, many layers, some known at this time, some that I am discovering as I go about training for this event. 
While I've entertained the idea of "walking" for a charity in the past, the last time I participated in one was back in 2002-2003 (I believe) when our youth group was part of CropWalk in Charlotte -- "ending hunger one step at a time" -- a 5k walk through the streets of our fair city. Bought a new pair of sneakers just for the occasion, the children made a banner, and we walked the 3.something miles for a good cause. Did I enjoy it?  the fellowship, the antics of the youth, the idea behind the walk -- ABSOLUTELY...the walking -- ABSOLUTELY NOT!  You see, I don't like walking; it's boring, tedious, and time-consuming!  So, it makes perfect sense that I would commit to walk 60 miles, don't you think?!
The cause is a worthy one, without a doubt -- to raise funds to be used in research to end breast cancer! Over the past 29 years, SGK has trained more than 400 researchers, and funded more than 1800 research projects. It has provided more money for breast cancer research and community health programs than any entity besides the US government.  While the above statistics would certainly be a great reason to participate in this event, I didn't know any of these facts until yesterday!

 If the truth be told, this idea was borne as a result of my father, George passing away this past February 2nd -- he was 91 years old, and up until a fall in early January, followed by a second fall a week later, did amazingly well for a man his age, with as many ailments as he had since he was in his early 50s -- you'll have to take my word for it that my father was a force of nature; raised by a loving mother, and abusive father (who died when my dad was 11), brother to several sisters, husband of 57 years to my mom, Mary, father of four, grandfather to 15, great-grandfather to 15, friend to many.... The depression left an indelible mark on him, and he reminded us often that "what you kids need is a good depression to teach you the value of a dollar."  But, I digress . . . after his second fall in early January, my father's health declined rapidly, and in the space of less than four weeks, he went from Home, to Hospital, to Nursing Home, to Hospital, to Palliative Care, to Hospice.  During that time, he moved in and out of lucidity and I was fortunate to be able to be with him the last couple of weeks. I actually spent my birthday at his bedside. While he didn't always know my name, he did recognize his "baby" and I will forever be grateful for that. The last few days before his passing, he was in tremendous pain and it was gut-wrenching to have to see him struggle, and be completely powerless to help. I pray you never find yourself in that position.  I will admit (only in this blog) that I am a "bit" of a control freak -- I don't see that as a bad thing necessarily -- so not being able to help him was impossible.

Almost 5 months later, I still can't accept that I was useless to my father when he needed me most. And, it's one of the reasons, after much prayer, that I decided that I needed to do something useful, something that could/would make a difference. And, then I heard an Avon Walk-for-the-Cure commercial on the radio, and an idea was borne . . . .

2 comments:

  1. Oh, but you're very useful...but I'd prefer the term "helpful." You are the go-to person to get things done around NBMC!

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  2. Thanks, Angela, for reading my blog and your comment. It's awful when our parents are in pain and we can't help them, but you certainly know about that. Keeping your mom in my prayers!

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